Returning the Blood to the Earth

The Way of The Priestess

Connecting to the Cycles and The Goddess

Returning the Blood to the Earth

There is a power and a mystery to our earthly connection. The links of nature are raw and unbroken, opening us to the lightness of a flower in spring, and equally with the decay of the autumn leaf litter, and all that was once living that now rests beneath it. One supports the other, in a cycle eternal as the way that we know time.

And then there is blood. A powerful reminder that we are alive. That which links families, and has been considered a worthy offering in cultures past, to the gods and goddesses of the people of many lands due to the potency of this representation of all that is living, and the essence within it of life force itself. We are born covered in blood, and it moves through us every moment we are breathing. And with every moon, the earth that nourishes us, can receive it back from us in a way that is sacred and true.

Our feminine cycles allow us a blood that is naturally released from us, and by embracing this, and honoring it as a sacred time, while also allowing our unused life force of that month, which contains the energy of all that has been occuring in our lives as it built there, it can be released not just physically, but through intention, released on many levels of our being… including mental, emotional, energetic, and spiritual. While embracing this sacred release, this letting go, and welcoming of a new month of fresh energies, we allow our actual life force to be given to our connection with the earth, and her spirit, the Goddess. This strengthens us in ways that can only be described through experience, and will touch each life uniquely based on your own relationship with Her.

First returning my blood to the earth was a precious moment. My sense of my past ties to Avalon grew thick as I buried an organic cotton tampon in the woods behind where I lived, a special little corner that was just for me out there. Silent, save for the fae and the birds who were watching, seeming to scamper through branches and chirrup in a celebration of sorts above. While now, I use a cup, and can pour it into a sacred vessel before taking it outside, whatever method you have available will suffice for this practice.

In the days that followed, the feeling I got was enormous… that almost overwhelming sense of being more than what you are; when the feeling of the trees that surround you (even when sitting indoors) is like being in a room filled with dear friends who are carrying your burdens, like warriors slinging them over their shoulders, the honored wounded who will be finally laid to rest… along with a nurturing sense that the great Mother, a face of our earth’s spirit herself, truly, the Goddess, was enveloping me, and the rains that lasted three days cried a sweet release of my recent loss and sorrow… the sense… that nothing ever again had to be processed alone.

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It hasn’t always been possible, due to living situations, to return my blood to the earth. But when I have, it has been clearly very well organized by a design that I am a small part of, and the results are always the same. Strong rains. Tremendous enveloping support. And very strong change.

This is the first time in a year that this has been occuring. Nearly one week following a new moon that brought so much prosperity. So much connection. And a deep and intense knowing that it was time to delve into my priestess essence, my connection with the Goddess. A candle magick ritual. The rebirth of a sacred wand that had been dormant for years. And the introduction of sacred oils hand-crafted by a sacred sister that had been long on their way. And the first intentions written at the new moon since before moving into this space.

I’m collecting rainwater, as the storms had begun days ago. And they always continue to come. The healing I’ve been processing has been a journey of a few months, and my inner stability has reached a point that is firm as stone, a true foundation to build upon, and for the first time in my life, I know that I can trust it to support me, from deep within my own essence.

If you are a witch, are a priestess, are a goddess in your own right (which, if you resonate with any of what I’ve shared here, you are, despite titles), know your power is true, and deepen it through your relationship to the elements around you.

Let the moon guide your movements. Let the blood of your womb be given to the earth that birthed you. Because our connection is our strength. And when we give of our sacred life force, She, in her greatness, gives of hers, to our truest path in devotion to our calling in her world.

This is the way of the priestess. The way of true life. Knowing that within these cycles of life and death, we are. Eternal. We are one. That the Goddess flows within us as our power and life force, and that we, as a part of the sacred cycles of earth, flow throughout Her.
Strengthen the connection. And you’ll be amazed. Blessed be, sisters… goddesses of the earth and moon.

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Work With Me

Hello, there, beautiful goddess! I’m SO happy that you’ve come here.

You are here for a reason. Every idea and dream you hold dear can help to make the world a more magical place for all of us.

My guess would be that you’re a passionate person with big dreams, and you’re wondering how I can help you.



What lovely goddesses I’ve had the honor of working with are saying:

“I recommend her if you want true results (…) the magic is still manifesting”

“This experience was so great. Jennifer was extremely welcoming which in turn made feel open to discuss my problem. She was so professional, understanding, and knowledgeable. Post our initial session I woke up feeling so refreshed and elated! & the magic is still manifesting here, it’s only day one!. Haha. Thank you Jennifer. I recommend her if you want true results and great customer service. She certainly goes the extra mile! :)”
-KD White – Hampton, Virginia

“You manifested like a faerie god mother (…) like “this is how you dig yourself up!”

I feel like I spent years underground like HELP I’VE BEEN BURIED ALIVE SOMEONE DIG ME UP
and you manifested energetically like a faerie god mother, handed me a shovel and were like “this is how you dig yourself up!”
– Niki Munster – Painesville, Ohio



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Goddess to Goddess Guidance

Working with me is a chance to get to know yourself on new levels, to bring clarity to what you feel will truly fulfill you, and to come up with a plan to make it a reality, with ongoing support and encouragement along the way.

Goddess to Goddess Guidance is sort of like life coaching from a weird little human spirit guide who happens to be your best friend.

First, you’ll share your hopes, dreams, struggles, and stressors, in a warm and welcoming conversation of unconditional acceptance from yours truly. Together, we’ll come up with a plan to begin to solidify the things you choose to bring into your life, and create in the world, and to dissolve those that hinder your happiness, and your growth, so that you can truly blossom, and make the impact that your heart is begging you to.

You’ll receive guidance and support through one-on-one, personal phone calls with me, once a week, or every two weeks, depending on what you feel is right for you.

This ongoing support will help to keep you inspired to keep moving forward on your path, as we work together, helping you to move through any challenges that may come as you grow, and your life evolves with you day by day.

I would absolutely love to work with you, to breathe life into your dreams and show you, through the power of your own efforts, and just the right nudges along the way, how much more you are capable of than you ever realized.

The world truly needs you to live your passions to your full potential, because you are a catalyst for powerful positive change. Together, we can do anything, and can make this planet more of a heavenly Eden every day, as we become the embodiments of our passionate, caring souls, true goddesses of this aquarian age. With focus, dedication, encouragement and support, I am here for you.

If Goddess to Goddess Guidance sounds like just what you need, send me a message here to tell me you’re interested, and we can talk details.



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Readings

Intuitive Readings

Need just a little burst of intuitive guidance?

I offer oracle card readings to look into a situation and the best way to understand it and move forward in a way that will give you the best results.

If you’d like to set up a reading, send me a message here.



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Aquarian Magick (Energy Work)

Life, we often don’t notice, is really much more than it seems to be. I combine my years of Reiki practice (Third Degree Reiki Master since 2010) with intuitive energy-work, the earthy pagan vibes that come naturally to me, and straight-up intention, to facilitate transformation.

This is always with the foundational intention of activating your unique divine blueprint… (activating the potential of you being who you were divinely designed to be, walking your most fulfilling path, in the highest possible frequency reality of harmony for all of life that can be grounded here and now.)

It can reach you wherever you are, and will give you what you need.

(Which, sometimes, isn’t the same as what we want. Insecurity and bad habits, fears and grudges: these can twist our perception of what’s right for us, making us feel like our dreams are less tangible than they actually are. This kind of potent work releases us from the bondage of these stifling vibes, which can be confusing or scary if we’ve held them all our lives.

Be prepared for perspective shifts, and life changes, and trust your path to make itself clear to you through the transformation process. Our evolution is never-ending.)

And, I’ll be there to help you to reenter yourself through this continuous and magnificent change.

If Aquarian Magick is calling to you, send me a message here to tell me you’re interested and find out more.



You are not alone in this. We have each other. Let’s make your life wonderful. I look forward to hearing from you!

Lots of love,

Aquarian Goddess Jen

Why Sage is Your Besty | Energy Cleansing Ceremony & More | Aquarian Goddess

One of the best ways to create the feel you’d like in your home, or in your day, or to just get in the zone, is smudging with sage.

Along with its spiritual cleansing properties, it is also antibacterial, and releases beneficial negative ions into the atmosphere (the same kinds released by waterfalls and pink salt lamps).

Join me in a little cleansing ceremony to shift your energy for today, and experience how calm and powerful you can feel when embracing a ritual mindset for yourself during your day.

 

 

It’s a beautiful thing to make the decision that today, in this moment, you are creating a positive change.  That you are doing something to make your life a little better.

Keep with these positive changes all along the way.  And sooner than you realize, you’ll be looking back at the you from ten years ago so proud of how far you’ve come, and shining with a confidence you never knew you’d have.

And I’ll be here with you along the way, supporting you as a sister, however I can, Goddess to Goddess.

All my love,

Jennifer Rae
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Faerie Oracle Card Reading | More than Who we Were | Week of November 19th

This week, we will be delving into the realm of the Fae, to explore the secret wisdom hidden within the trees, the waters, the skies, and deep within the heart of it all.

Here, we will explore the energies of the week to come, allowing us to gain deeper insight into the best way to reach into ourselves and pull out what is needed to most effectively thrive when meeting each day.

So, grab a cup of tea, light a candle, and get settled in for a nice moment of exploration together.

Once you’ve met the Fae, the world is never the same again.

You’ll feel their presence beckoning you to dance.  You’ll hear laughter in the rustling of the leaves.

You’ll find a certain sense of peace knowing there’s a reason for the animal you just spotted appearing to you in just the way that it did.

Faery wisdom is something to be deeply revered, as it is a river that runs deeper than much of what we’ve seen here on the surface of things as humans.

So remember, for this week, the following energies will help us.

Being present, really knowing our truth, and knowing that the universe has our back, while exploring our inner and outer worlds.

Digging deep into the strength, wisdom, and everything that we’ve learned through struggle that has helped us to overcome, and utilizing that wisdom and strength to overcome the challenges that approach on our path to greatness.

Looking at things differently towards the week’s end.  That we haven’t seen all that there is, and our opinions need to be a little more flexible.

And throughout this whole week, remembering that we are so much more than who we have been, and what has happened to us.  We have grown and healed so much, and when we shine our light into the darkness, we will see others who can benefit from us sharing what helped us to heal those same wounds.

And as always, I’m also here for you, Goddess to Goddess.

All my love,

Jennifer Rae

Faerie Oracle | Aquarian Goddess

Of Spirit & Earth – How to Tune in to Nature’s Cycles

We are infinite.  Sacred beings.  Born of stardust and molten rock.  Swirling tides and the passion between lips.  We move in spirals with the seasons and the skies, and we tend to forget the magick that pours through our essence.  It is time to remember.

I’d like to share this with you, as I’ve had a powerful impact from this song since I was about sixteen. It sinks me deeply into my universal awareness, observing participation with archetypes of my cyclical flowing pagan roots, and an experience of the beauty of what it means to bridge earth and spirit in the midst of the infinite.  

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Listen to: Gaia Consort – Drawing Down the Moon

Ritual.  Bring it into your life.  In ways small and large.  In harmony with your essence, and touching the existence we were born of, whether by the cycles of the moon, or the sun, or the seasons, or simply reaching into the mystery of night with a candle and smiling into the infinite potential that you are here to activate for yourself.

Let your intentions for your life become a sacred moment.  Sit down.  Tell the Universe what you want to create.  Ask for guidance and insight.  And listen.

Tune this moment into the cycles of nature in whatever way feels natural.  I write my intentions at either the full or new moon, based on how I’m guided, send energy into them over the month, and then release them with pure trust to the Universe by fire, outside, under the light, or the shadow, knowing that they will be born in accordance with the flow that is needed in my life, and all of life around me.

And at times, I simply draw down the energy of the full moon, grounding it into the earth with the intention of illumination and harmony.  For All of Life.  Rippling out from the place where I stand, like a silver liquid pool, ever-expanding.

Whatever you choose to do, let it be your own.  In alignment with your inner truth and knowing.  And know that as you go, I am always walking beside you, a sister honored to be a part of your journey, and share in our sacred wisdom, Goddess to Goddess.

Bright blessings,

Jennifer Rae

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North & South Nodes – The Power of You – Live Video 30 Day Challenge

The Power of You.

The strongest force in the Universe lives inside of you.

Stand strong and let it come out today.

If you didn’t catch the live-stream on Instagram announcing the Power of You live video series, to help you break free into your best life possible, from the inside out, you can still find it here in my blog.

I committed to this 30 Day Challenge doing one live video on Instagram daily, to help bring myself out of my comfort zone and into greater communication with you! 

I have so much to share with you about the tools and practices and perspectives that help to bring out the power that rests deep within each of us, so that you can live and thrive in accordance with the core of who you are, embodied to the fullest.

In this first short episode, I share the story of how the idea for this series was sparked by a magnificent coaching call with Klara Hodulakova where we dug down deep to the bottom of what had been holding me back from expressing myself fully and really letting myself shine true in my business in the way that I desperately wanted to show up.

 

 

One of the things that I realized was that my perfectionist tendencies were stopping me in my tracks left and right (sound familiar?) and every time I’d think about putting myself out there in a new way, I’d come up with twelve reasons why I didn’t know just the right strategy (only to answer her questions about how much I love to share messages through video, and love YouTube and Instagram as platforms), didn’t have the perfect lighting and equipment (when mine is perfectly suited for live video and can improve over time), and was concerned I’d run out of ideas for the the steady stream of information I’d need to share to be consistent enough (when I could literally ramble about mystical and grounded self-improvement all day every day to whoever’s listening, because let’s face it, that’s the only thing my brain is focusing on besides being in greater harmony with nature, and the occasional Disney song.)

After this realization, that my perfectionism was holding me back in such a massive way from expressing myself to the fullest to the world, when I already know that doing just that is my whole purpose and message and goal, I realized the relevance it had to my astrology, particularly my north and south nodes.

In our natal charts, our north and south nodes tell us the direction we’re meant to move toward, in our approach to life, and the opposite of it that we are starting from.  For example, my north node is in Pisces, which means that in this life, I am meant to move more towards my spiritual, trusting, intuitive nature, and to let go of my tendency to get caught up in too much of the life approach of my south node, which is in Virgo, and shows up as a tendency to deeply analyze, strategize, and have every single detail in perfect order.  To be coming away from my south node means that I’ve had an overabundance of attention to detail, and need to lighten up about the details not always being smudge-proof and lined up in nice little rows.  To trust that who I am and what I offer is good enough because of what it is, and that its appearance is not here for me to be judging.  That it is a gift from the divine, no matter what it is shaped like, and that it should be treated as such and be free to flow in its raw and natural glory.

Sometimes we need to be reminded by a mirror of how we’re not walking our talk in an area we were trying to hide from ourselves. 

No matter how many years of self-improvement we’ve had, we will always be growing and challenging ourselves in new ways, and we will always have revelations about things we didn’t realize we were doing, because we disguised it as not being ready, by limiting beliefs.  And so here I am, full force, ready to share with you SO much from the core of my being, to help you break free in more and more ways, on this exhilarating 30 day journey into The Power of You.

Be sure to follow me @_aquarian.goddess_ so you can tune in on Instagram at 5pm EST today for the next Power of You live video! I’ll give you a hint as to the next topic.  It’s something we were masters of in our childhood, but never realized would be a practical and magical force that can transform our lives today.  Any guesses? 😊🌸🍃

Expectations, Joy, and Creating Balance

I was inspired by an instagram thought-stream by Brittany Greer, where she talks about expectations.

It rang especially true for me, as expectations have been one of the most difficult and important things to be aware of in my life so far, and are truly the foundation of so much of our inner turmoil.

They’re a main focus for me, because of my sensitivity to them when they’ve been placed on me. When you think about it, any moment of displeasure, whether it’s not liking someone’s demeanor, or the choices they make, or your boss being annoyed that you’re not performing well at your job, or you just not liking your job, it’s all based on the experience being in contrast to our expectation that life is supposed to be comfortable and enjoyable.

It sounds strange when you think about it like that, but it makes sense when you break it down.

“I’m annoyed because I don’t like my job.”
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“I expect that jobs should be more fulfilling and enjoyable.”

In a given moment, the thing which we’re observing does not live up to our expectations. That’s the reason why we feel upset. This natural reaction shows us that on a subtle level, deep in our core, we actually expect every single thing in life to be extremely likeable. We know that something better is possible, and we’re kind of bothered that it’s not happening right now. On one hand, it’s incredible to be so in tune with our preferences, but on the other hand, well, following our preferences could easily get way out of hand, and become a toned down version of when my nieces are feeling a little too entitled.

I’ve been spending a lot of time around my nieces lately, and my sister was talking with me yesterday, asking my thoughts on why they seem to have so much trouble focusing and why they’ve been having more of an attitude lately when they aren’t getting their way.

My perspective was simple, and inspired by a conversation on how our behavior is so rooted in the way that, as children, we’re raised. Our society starts us off as small children thinking that the foundation of our everday lives, and our main goal, is simply entertainment. Seeking joy. And don’t get me wrong, seeking joy is one of the most important things that we can practice in our lives, as it will, when balanced properly, guide us to our purpose, and help us to make the right choices that will guide us to where we truly belong. But when they’re unbalanced, we become closed off, angry, depressed, or just plain spoiled rotten. So how do we prevent that? And where did it all start?

I’ll go back to the example of society and children. In our great-grandmothers’ generation, and through all of our recorded history before that, the majority of children grew up in a vastly different environment on too many levels to count. They weren’t bombarded with bright, shiny objects and loud, glowing screens full of imaginary people and stories for hours on end.

They sat in quiet homes, and in nature, with their family. The only things they had to observe around them were the daily actions that helped their family to live a stable life. They watched gardens grow. They watched homes be built with the help of the community. They sat with their mothers and fathers while they cared for animals, did the sewing, prepared the meals with plants that they understood. Their lives were slower and had an obvious purpose, were connected to the natural cycles, and their games with other children were understood to be a very small part of what they were here to be and do.

Their ability to self-discipline and follow the requests of their family were understood as being a top priority, and there was not as strong of a sense, as they developed, that their own entertainment could take over, without the household falling apart. Obviously, children are still children, and it takes time and practice and persistence to form solid healthy habits in life, but with so few distractions, and a sense of being a part of something, their relationship with the expectations placed on them was more solid, more natural, and more real.

For those of us in my generation who grew up without that upbringing, it was a little more like a swirling chaos of Nickelodeon, gameboys, and, oh, we had to go to school because they tell us to. Not a lot of parents (at least based on the conversations I’ve had with many of my peers) even strongly emphasized that being a child is training you for adulthood, in a practical way that really prepared us for things, and just kind of said that someday we’d go to college and get a job, and left the rest up to the schooling systems.

So, a lot of us floundered. A lot of us didn’t even have meals together, or do anything together as a family on a daily or weekly basis. In my home, tv was the only activity, and our dinner was eating while staring into it, without anyone learning anything about each other’s lives, or talking about what was going on in the lives of the adults. There wasn’t a natural observation of adult life that would allow me to prepare myself mentally for what it would be like to learn to balance everything, and have self discipline, feel like an important part of something, or truly learn to relate to others in a kind and healthy way. This was simply because we didn’t talk, we didn’t work together in any way, and everyone was too busy distracting themselves with the brain-candy of the moment, inbetween obligations we didn’t see a reason for (besides “I’ll get in trouble if I don’t”) and pretty much ignoring everything else.

For those of us with this kind of upbringing, it can be very difficult to look at the world we’ve just graduated into and not feel confused, irritated, lost, and overwhelmed with how many things we feel no sense of passion or purpose about, and no obvious way to figure out how to fix it. So, too many of us end up starting off by just finding a job that pays okay, and binge Netflix on the weekends because, what else is there when you don’t really wanna get up?

Then we feel cranky about our job (because we settled for it, but somehow still expect it to be perfect, instead of looking for a creative way to make a living) and we grumble that there’s nothing on Netflix (because we’ve already spent too much time on there and expect it to entertain us forever, instead of thinking about something cool we could learn, or share with the world, and trying it) and we get mad at the people around us (because we expect them to be somebody they’re not, and satisfy our need for love, understanding, fun, and intellectual stimulation, instead of giving more of those things to ourselves, and those people, for being exactly who we each are).

We expect that life should be entertaining. We expect that things should be easy. We expect that the right path will be laid out in front of us, because that’s what we’ve known moving through the world to be like. And we don’t know how to direct ourselves, because no one showed us. And we’re sincerely bothered by everything and everyone that doesn’t match what we know we need, instead of turning to ourselves to find the answers, because we don’t even realize that we have them.

Thanks to these expectations we place on others, and on our world, and even on ourselves, our judgements and the ways we hold ourselves back are born from our comfort zone, when they should be based on whether or not something (or someone) is healthy and fulfilling for us as a whole.

So, the question is… day to day, how do we find the balance?

We start by noticing our emotions, and instead of complaining or shutting something out, pausing to ask ourselves,
“What is missing from this, that makes it bother me?”

If you’re sitting at home on the weekend and feel unbearably bored, what’s missing? Is it adventure? Is it depth? Is it wanting to be a part of something? Is it creative expression? Is it love? Is it wanting to feel accomplished in the world, like you’ve done something important?

If you’re annoyed, or just kind of dismissing a person or an idea, why do you feel that way? Do they remind you of someone who hurt you before? Is it something that feels unfamiliar and maybe makes you uncomfortable to imagine yourself being a part of?

In a conversation, it might be that you feel bothered by someone being rude. Respect is missing. How can you calmly address it? Tell them gently what you noticed. If they show no interest in cocreating a peaceful interaction, it’s okay to set a boundary and walk away.

On the opposite side, in a relationship, whether work or personal, if someone is placing too many expectations on you, and you feel overwhelmed, it’s okay to let them know, and see how you can work together to create solutions, or spread out the work in a healthier way for everyone.

And in your life in general, if something you’re doing doesn’t feel fulfilling, or doesn’t feel like enough, feel it out. Take it step by step and really look at what’s important to you, and go from there. What do you care about, and why? How do you want to make a difference? What are your skills, and what are the new skills that your purpose would require?

If you’re still figuring out your path, think about what you’d want to see the world look like 20 years from now. Think about what problems in the world really hurt to think about. Think about what kinds of activities light your heart up. And think about how they could all fit together into one life.

In my coaching program, Goddess to Goddess Guidance, I take you deeply into the questions that reveal your true essence to yourself, to help you figure out what it really is that’s right for you, on your own terms, in your own way, and work week by week to make it happen, together, as you grow.

Discovering your purpose is a beautiful unfolding that breathes life into you in ways you never knew it could. And I say that from experience. The more that I’ve surrendered to not only the things that bring me the greatest joy and fulfillment, but also the challenges that appear in my path along the way, I’ve become stronger, wiser, and more free and satisfied than ever before, even though I feel like I have so far to grow. This is the journey I want for you, dear goddess, because you are a light uniquely all your own. You will find your way, and I’m always here to walk beside you, Goddess to Goddess.

All my love,

Aquarian Goddess Jen

My Secret

I have held inside of me 
 A secret,
 A swirling torrent,
 Held still in a singularity,
 Melded down into itself 
 A thousand times
 Over the course 
 Of countless patterns
 Of tingling neurons
 Leaping 
 With electric hesitation
 As my story,
 Moment by moment,
 Becomes incomplete.

I have clutched 
 The smile on my face
 So tightly
 That the bleeding heart 
 Behind it
 Began to seep through,
 Pounding against 
 The inside of my skull 
 And rattling the skeletons 
 In my closet
 So loudly
 That I 
 Almost expressed myself
 About an old dark moment
 That hasn't been released
 From the grip that holds
 Its snapping jaws 
 At arm's length,
 Away from my sight.

I am no ordinary human,
 And no more or less special 
 Than anyone you've seen
 In the faces you've avoided 
 On your street 
 On the way to the grocery.
 But I have keys and locks
 That most don't notice,
 Because, 
 Seeing all that's there
 Would bring most shoppers 
 To their knees,
 Wishing that somehow
 They could forget
 What makes us breathe,
 And take their chicken back 
 To the aisle 
 Where they still felt free.

I'm the kind of girl 
 You meet behind a counter,
 Or in an alien ship 
 Three dimensions away,
 Occasionally in the ghetto 
 With schizophrenics,
 Or by a pagan fire 
 Dancing in the rain.

Sometimes I'm in a trash house 
 In the desert,
 Or hiding under a blanket 
 On the couch.
 But my secret 
 Is always melded 
 Into everything,
 The details you don't hear,
 That I leave out.

I wrote this tonight to share with you my experience of opening.  We all have things that feel incredibly difficult to be open about, sometimes even with ourselves, but the more that we are brave enough to at least notice and feel what we’re hiding and why, the easier it will be to determine where our unexpressed story is holding us back.

What if you’re holding back the truth about what you need in a job or a relationship?  Or what if your unexpressed weird or wild or taboo side is keeping you from unleashing the most satisfying creative ways of expressing who you really are as an individual, and keeping you from getting to know yourself fully?

What if your old wounds, and other things you don’t like to think about, are keeping you in a habit of playing it safe, keeping yourself small, or settling for something that makes you wonder where you went wrong?

We have to be honest with ourselves and know our own secrets.  Only then can we begin to move forward, and be loving towards ourselves in the ways that we really need it, and be bold in the ways that we haven’t been for too long of a while.

And as always, I’m here with an open heart to remind you that you are perfect as you are, and always growing, and supporting you on your journey, Goddess to Goddess. 

All my love and appreciation,

Aquarian Goddess Jen

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When I think about dying…

Hello there, beautiful soul.

I hope you’re doing well. I’m having one of those moments where you remember just how short and precious our time is here. I get a little nervous when I’m not feeling well for a while, since there’s no clear explanation for what’s causing some of my issues, besides stress. But the thought is mainly brought to mind today by a show I’m watching, where a woman, who decided not to get surgery, and to let cancer take her, was writing a bucket list… with such grace, and honesty.

I used to think about the temporary nature of life a lot more in high school than I have recently, but it’s definitely coming to mind more often, and I feel it immensely. It’s like I’m watching my life from its end, looking back on today, and all the years before it.

I decided to write a list from those tears, and I felt it would be more personal and honest than the usual goals that I write out of a need to change the world through acts of survival. What do I really want outside of that? I analyzed it later. Initially, my instincts just poured, through my shaking.

Before Jen Dies

Please help her to

Ride a horse

Spin wool

See an aurora

Fall in love

Stay in love

Give her mom $5,000

Snuggle a kitten

Make her own wedding dress

Give Niki a home

Make a new good friend

Share her heart with the world

Feel beautiful

Be kind and compassionate

Be strong and sovereign

Touch moss

Make love in the forest

Dance with reckless abandon

Grow love in vegetables and flowers

Feel truly at home

If you didn’t have long, and didn’t know how long, what would you truly desire? What would be the things you’d wish for when you thought it might be too late?

Riding a horse surprised me. I guess we want pretty different things when coming from different states of mind. But everything else seemed like they fit perfectly.

A couple that almost made the list were eating chocolate, and listening to the Backstreet Boys with my sister. “Huley Hooping” with my niece belongs on there too. Hearing gramma tell stories from the world long before I was born. Sharing a campfire with good company. If I could choose how I wanted to die, it would be in my sleep (like my dad..) and after a night of nostalgic conversation around a campfire. With my family, or someone just as close.

Cherish these precious opportunities. We haven’t always got the strength, or the focus… but try to fit these special moments into the daily struggle of gathering what’s needed to stay alive. Because otherwise, what’s the point of any of it?

Be well, and be strong. You are sovereign, and worthy beyond measure.

All my love, truly,

Aquarian Goddess Jen

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Who brings out YOU?

Today, let’s talk about influence, identity, and most importantly, you.

Personally, I’m very aware that we are all walking tuning forks and chameleons, soaking up and emitting the gist of our surroundings.

We walk around picking up mannerisms, preferences, habits of thought, and through this natural phenomenon, our individual truths get smushed into different shapes for a while, until we realize it through being shown the striking contrast, usually in a rather dramatic “I don’t even recognize myself anymore!” kind of upheaval.

We’re often drawn to people who remind us of ourselves, or others we’ve felt comfortable with in the past. It’s only natural, since the person feels familiar, and we’ve created a habit of being open to that specific energy in our lives. This is good, as long as we have a healthy filter so that we don’t end up repeating mistakes of opening to someone who has qualities that are damaging.

We also have a tendency to seek out those who have qualities that we’d like to embody ourselves, and while this is healthy when done in a balanced way that keeps your truths and core values intact (while unconditionally loving ourselves along the way), it’s an image of a future self that is always under construction and usually not someone we identify as just yet, so we’ll often tweak ourselves to match the template of how THIS person got closer to where we’d like to be, and can get a bit lost in that.

The third kind of person is the real game-changer. Every now and then, you’ll meet a person who brings out YOU. They are the rare gems who just naturally bring us into a comfortable state of self-expression and feeling good in our own skins.

They may or may not be walking a similar path, they may or may not seem particularly inspiring, but that’s not what makes them so inexplicably enjoyable. You’ll know who they are because they’re not just like you, or like your ideal image of who you want to become. You’re not just picking up on qualities that you share, like you would with a mirror. They’re genuinely THEM and that energy supports you being you.

These are my favorite kinds of people. While you have a lot in common, you get really geeked about how THEM their outfit, or their art, or their way of living is. And they wanna know what makes you you. They appreciate the shit out of your unique expression, and their energy naturally directs you towards INNER expression from your core, rather than ideals and constructs and values of theirs, or society’s.

I’ve lucked out to have a couple friends like that over my lifetime. They’re the ones who you just keep a special place in your life for, who keep a special place for you in theirs.

Pay attention to these people, the ones whose unique energy supports you being what you are. This type of connection is SO life-giving, in that it releases us from the usual pressure we feel to conform to our surroundings, or our ideals, in a sea of expectation and being on guard.

Choose to surround yourself with the people who are amazed by your natural way of being, who encourage you and make you feel proud of who you are.

Give yourself the full permission to be uninhibitedly you. And those who suit you, your projects, and your personality will be able to see you, and be a part of your wonderfully unique life.

Who we naturally are is PERFECTLY suited to our purpose, and as long as we put our genuine hearts and wills out into the world every day, we WILL create the lives we’ve been dreaming of. It’s only a matter of consistent, authentic, soul-inspired action, as we go forward through time.

And if you need a friend or a helping hand along the way, you know I’ve got you, Goddess to Goddess.

All my love,

Aquarian Goddess Jen

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