Are you Committed to your Soul or to your Struggle?

This is a powerful question to ask yourself.

Not just once, but as you go about the day.

As you’re making your choices, what is your main motivator?

Is it your belief that God, Spirit, The Universe, Your Higher Self… is guiding you and has your back?

Or is it the false idea, the limiting belief, that yesterday’s struggles are somehow glued to you through tomorrow?

Your committment is the glue that sticks a situation to you. Release from the committment and you’re free. Commit to a new goal, or a new path, and it’s yours. Simple as that. Simple doesn’t mean easy, it just means simple. You’ve got to hold something you’ve glued together for a while to make sure that it sticks. Glue takes a while to dry.

 

 

 

I’ve spent plenty of time committed to the struggle too, so I definitely feel ya. Two years ago, I was deep in it. I’d come home from an office job that was just to pay the bills, that stressed me out to the point where I was getting sick all the time and felt so drained I had no interest in anything.

It was one of those jobs where the boss is a good guy, but yelled and swore at everyone. As an empath and a highly sensitive person, I just could not take it. It was the kind of job that makes a person like me cry in the bathroom.

When I’d get home, I’d put the quickest food possible into a pot or in the oven, and zone out to Netflix with the only free time I had (which felt like none even though it was hours). My health was SO far out of whack from stress affecting my hormones (which control SO many things in the body) that most of my money went towards seeing a naturopath to fix it.  I knew my everyday life was making me really unhappy, but I was very good at distracting myself from it, as a way to cope with that fact that I didn’t think I could change it any time soon.

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Sometimes you can’t see how far you’ve strayed from your path until you put down your favorite form of distraction.

I was so focused on improving my health with the little energy I had, but here’s the thing. My lifestyle was throwing me back out of whack every time I’d get back in it. I was so committed to this job that was slowly killing me, and to the coping mechanisms (escaping through entertainment) that I used to try and unwind, and felt so unstable that I was afraid, SO afraid to risk losing that sense of foundation. Even though it was crumbling under me, and taking me down with it.

My lifestyle, and my committment to my struggle, were what needed fixing.

Does any of this sound familiar? Because the more people I talk to, the more people I see scared to take leaps of faith (big or small) to start to root their foundation in their soul, with the support of the universe, instead of being committed to the struggle of going against what’s actually healthy for them.

Leaps of faith don’t have to be massive. They can be as simple as looking at what’s out of alignment with your inner truth, and changing one small thing at a time to get closer to it.

There is a divine blueprint, a path laid out by your soul before you come here, and you can find it by feeling into what lights you up, vs. what shuts you down. Our lives are a combination of fate and free will. This path is always laid out for us, but it’s up to us to align with it, and choose to walk it.

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There is a unique path just for you, divinely designed for your truest fulfillment.

For my journey, it took me some time to make the changes, but I took things one step at a time. I got a job that seemed more chill at first, doing office work from home. It gave me the opportunity to invest in coaching for the first time, and start REALLY building the spiritual coaching & energy work business I’d been dabbling with for three years. Investing in myself and in my soul’s purpose was the most powerful that I’d ever done. Having someone there to encourage and guide me back to my own center, keep me focused on my goals so I woudn’t give up or completely change paths (like I’d done over and over again before that).

I was finally starting to GROUND what my life had been teaching me and preparing me for for all these years. And YES, it was still a struggle. My job at that time started getting more and more stressful. I stopped and started a handful of times to rest and recenter, but never truly gave up. And over the course of only a year, I had gained so much confidence, had learned to trust myself to be able to make a living in a way that didn’t murder me in the face all week, but actually aligned me deeper with my core so that I could help others in the way that I knew I was meant to.

It started getting exciting to be alive again, because I had calls lined up with wonderful people who I was helping to line up with their path in the same way that I had been lining up with mine. These were people who were thanking me for our coaching sessions giving them the clarity and courage to do things like going on adventures to Alaska to find themselves after years in the corporate world, or realizing completely new ways that they could put their love of transformational festivals, retreats, shamanic plant medicines, and sound healing together into event ideas that were completely unique to their path and gifts to share with the world.

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Ganesh: Remover of Obstacles

I started to become so lit up, and inspired. And even though I was still working that office job that was getting crazy stressful as they kept adding more to my plate and speeding up the pace, and making me sick again, I was on fire. I started doing more and more in my free time because I was determined to transition out of it. I was ready for a new environment and to be in my own element again.

I started doing reiki and readings on a psychic hotline type of website. I started collaborating with websites that were reaching out to me as I kept sharing my message. I had some money saved up and decided when I got really sick one week, that I couldn’t keep doing that to myself, I had to let go of that job. That was a major turning point for me. I had become so committed to my purpose that it was starting to replace the crumbling foundation that I was refusing to let take me down this time.

I kept taking step after step… writing, coaching, reiki & intuitive energy work, readings. Helping people. Empowering people. Inspiring people to be who they’re meant to be more strongly. Feeling into what I truly needed right then. And trusting. Letting go of the fears one by one, and trusting.

And then, as you’ll find happens when you commit to aligning with your soul’s true path… everything started falling into place.

I moved to Asheville this past week. Through focusing on alignment and taking action with INTENSE determination, it only took me a week to sort out the details, pack, travel, and feel at home. Never before in my life could I have set everything up and moved in a week. It was one of those situations where you look back and realize that we’re all capable of so much more than we realize when we step into alignment with our souls, our spirit, our inner being, and allow it to flow no matter what challenges come up.

I connected with the perfect roomies to live with who became instant friends. The perfect spa to be a part of. And got started on a new program with my own coach to really make the most of this powerful transition and first steps into this next incredible phase of my life.

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So, I have to ask you… what is your committment to?

Your struggle or your soul?

Are you trusting and aligning, or suffering because you’re too afraid to let go of what’s dragging you down?

What in your lifestyle needs to be nudged back into alignment that’s been throwing you out of whack? What committments need to be broken altogether? And what new ones can we start to put into place?
I’m ALWAYS here to support you and guide you, into your own truth, so that you can show up, and ground your purpose, and make the impact that you’re here to make in the world.

Message me here for a free consult. I’d love to help you gain clarity and the courage to make a change.

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BE BOLD | Faerie Oracle Reading | Week of Sept 8th | Aquarian Goddess

Hey, everyone!

This week, the energies will require us to tune into our inner truth and act boldly.

Check out the video to see what the fae have to say, and some advice on the best ways to apply their insights!

 

Struggling with something you need clarity on, to move forward in your own life?

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Why Sage is Your Besty | Energy Cleansing Ceremony & More | Aquarian Goddess

One of the best ways to create the feel you’d like in your home, or in your day, or to just get in the zone, is smudging with sage.

Along with its spiritual cleansing properties, it is also antibacterial, and releases beneficial negative ions into the atmosphere (the same kinds released by waterfalls and pink salt lamps).

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Witchy tips: Sage is for more than just smudging.

While it may be our go-to, sage is more versatile than a lot of us tend to make use of day-to-day.

A sprinkle of culinary sage on your dinner, with a positive intention, can have a gentle healing and cleansing effect of the energy of all who taste it (while having a wide range of medicinal properties including immunity-boosting and reducing inflammation, and promoting balanced blood-sugar, and mental clarity, while being anti-microbial and straight-up tasty). A tea of culinary sage can be sipped for wisdom, prosperity, and to comfort sorrow.

A tea of any type of sage can be spritzed around the house for cleansing and protection for those whose sinuses are sensitive to smudging, or a few drops of an essential oil can be added to a diffuser to disperse it through the house, or add it to a ritual bath (bonus cleansing if you also add salt 😉). You can keep a plant of it near you door as a guardian, even if you just have space for a small potted plant.

The leaves are a powerful “paper” for writing your intentions for manifestation, and keeping it under your pillow can ward off bad dreams, or in a sachet with abundance intentions (or in your purse or wallet) to increase your wealth.

Different sages have different specialties. Clary sage can uplift the mood. White sage is the most potent protector. And creating your own intuitively guided way to connect personally with the spirit and energy of sage will strengthen any of these results.

Remember to trust your power and your allies, and everything will unfold as it’s meant to. Happy witching, friends. 😉

For guidance on your spiritual path, and intuitive energy work, send me a message. I’d love to help your purpose unfold.

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Join me in a little cleansing ceremony to shift your energy for today, and experience how calm and powerful you can feel when embracing a ritual mindset for yourself during your day.

 

 

It’s a beautiful thing to make the decision that today, in this moment, you are creating a positive change.  That you are doing something to make your life a little better.

Keep with these positive changes all along the way.  And sooner than you realize, you’ll be looking back at the you from ten years ago so proud of how far you’ve come, and shining with a confidence you never knew you’d have.

And I’ll be here with you along the way, supporting you as a sister, however I can, Goddess to Goddess.

All my love,

Jennifer Rae
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Faerie Oracle Card Reading | More than Who we Were | Week of November 19th

This week, we will be delving into the realm of the Fae, to explore the secret wisdom hidden within the trees, the waters, the skies, and deep within the heart of it all.

Here, we will explore the energies of the week to come, allowing us to gain deeper insight into the best way to reach into ourselves and pull out what is needed to most effectively thrive when meeting each day.

So, grab a cup of tea, light a candle, and get settled in for a nice moment of exploration together.

Once you’ve met the Fae, the world is never the same again.

You’ll feel their presence beckoning you to dance.  You’ll hear laughter in the rustling of the leaves.

You’ll find a certain sense of peace knowing there’s a reason for the animal you just spotted appearing to you in just the way that it did.

Faery wisdom is something to be deeply revered, as it is a river that runs deeper than much of what we’ve seen here on the surface of things as humans.

So remember, for this week, the following energies will help us.

Being present, really knowing our truth, and knowing that the universe has our back, while exploring our inner and outer worlds.

Digging deep into the strength, wisdom, and everything that we’ve learned through struggle that has helped us to overcome, and utilizing that wisdom and strength to overcome the challenges that approach on our path to greatness.

Looking at things differently towards the week’s end.  That we haven’t seen all that there is, and our opinions need to be a little more flexible.

And throughout this whole week, remembering that we are so much more than who we have been, and what has happened to us.  We have grown and healed so much, and when we shine our light into the darkness, we will see others who can benefit from us sharing what helped us to heal those same wounds.

And as always, I’m also here for you, Goddess to Goddess.

All my love,

Jennifer Rae

Faerie Oracle | Aquarian Goddess

Of Spirit & Earth – How to Tune in to Nature’s Cycles

We are infinite.  Sacred beings.  Born of stardust and molten rock.  Swirling tides and the passion between lips.  We move in spirals with the seasons and the skies, and we tend to forget the magick that pours through our essence.  It is time to remember.

I’d like to share this with you, as I’ve had a powerful impact from this song since I was about sixteen. It sinks me deeply into my universal awareness, observing participation with archetypes of my cyclical flowing pagan roots, and an experience of the beauty of what it means to bridge earth and spirit in the midst of the infinite.  

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Listen to: Gaia Consort – Drawing Down the Moon

Ritual.  Bring it into your life.  In ways small and large.  In harmony with your essence, and touching the existence we were born of, whether by the cycles of the moon, or the sun, or the seasons, or simply reaching into the mystery of night with a candle and smiling into the infinite potential that you are here to activate for yourself.

Let your intentions for your life become a sacred moment.  Sit down.  Tell the Universe what you want to create.  Ask for guidance and insight.  And listen.

Tune this moment into the cycles of nature in whatever way feels natural.  I write my intentions at either the full or new moon, based on how I’m guided, send energy into them over the month, and then release them with pure trust to the Universe by fire, outside, under the light, or the shadow, knowing that they will be born in accordance with the flow that is needed in my life, and all of life around me.

And at times, I simply draw down the energy of the full moon, grounding it into the earth with the intention of illumination and harmony.  For All of Life.  Rippling out from the place where I stand, like a silver liquid pool, ever-expanding.

Whatever you choose to do, let it be your own.  In alignment with your inner truth and knowing.  And know that as you go, I am always walking beside you, a sister honored to be a part of your journey, and share in our sacred wisdom, Goddess to Goddess.

Bright blessings,

Jennifer Rae

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North & South Nodes – The Power of You – Live Video 30 Day Challenge

The Power of You.

The strongest force in the Universe lives inside of you.

Stand strong and let it come out today.

If you didn’t catch the live-stream on Instagram announcing the Power of You live video series, to help you break free into your best life possible, from the inside out, you can still find it here in my blog.

I committed to this 30 Day Challenge doing one live video on Instagram daily, to help bring myself out of my comfort zone and into greater communication with you! 

I have so much to share with you about the tools and practices and perspectives that help to bring out the power that rests deep within each of us, so that you can live and thrive in accordance with the core of who you are, embodied to the fullest.

In this first short episode, I share the story of how the idea for this series was sparked by a magnificent coaching call with Klara Hodulakova where we dug down deep to the bottom of what had been holding me back from expressing myself fully and really letting myself shine true in my business in the way that I desperately wanted to show up.

 

 

One of the things that I realized was that my perfectionist tendencies were stopping me in my tracks left and right (sound familiar?) and every time I’d think about putting myself out there in a new way, I’d come up with twelve reasons why I didn’t know just the right strategy (only to answer her questions about how much I love to share messages through video, and love YouTube and Instagram as platforms), didn’t have the perfect lighting and equipment (when mine is perfectly suited for live video and can improve over time), and was concerned I’d run out of ideas for the the steady stream of information I’d need to share to be consistent enough (when I could literally ramble about mystical and grounded self-improvement all day every day to whoever’s listening, because let’s face it, that’s the only thing my brain is focusing on besides being in greater harmony with nature, and the occasional Disney song.)

After this realization, that my perfectionism was holding me back in such a massive way from expressing myself to the fullest to the world, when I already know that doing just that is my whole purpose and message and goal, I realized the relevance it had to my astrology, particularly my north and south nodes.

In our natal charts, our north and south nodes tell us the direction we’re meant to move toward, in our approach to life, and the opposite of it that we are starting from.  For example, my north node is in Pisces, which means that in this life, I am meant to move more towards my spiritual, trusting, intuitive nature, and to let go of my tendency to get caught up in too much of the life approach of my south node, which is in Virgo, and shows up as a tendency to deeply analyze, strategize, and have every single detail in perfect order.  To be coming away from my south node means that I’ve had an overabundance of attention to detail, and need to lighten up about the details not always being smudge-proof and lined up in nice little rows.  To trust that who I am and what I offer is good enough because of what it is, and that its appearance is not here for me to be judging.  That it is a gift from the divine, no matter what it is shaped like, and that it should be treated as such and be free to flow in its raw and natural glory.

Sometimes we need to be reminded by a mirror of how we’re not walking our talk in an area we were trying to hide from ourselves. 

No matter how many years of self-improvement we’ve had, we will always be growing and challenging ourselves in new ways, and we will always have revelations about things we didn’t realize we were doing, because we disguised it as not being ready, by limiting beliefs.  And so here I am, full force, ready to share with you SO much from the core of my being, to help you break free in more and more ways, on this exhilarating 30 day journey into The Power of You.

Be sure to follow me @_aquarian.goddess_ so you can tune in on Instagram at 5pm EST today for the next Power of You live video! I’ll give you a hint as to the next topic.  It’s something we were masters of in our childhood, but never realized would be a practical and magical force that can transform our lives today.  Any guesses? 😊🌸🍃

My Secret

I have held inside of me 
 A secret,
 A swirling torrent,
 Held still in a singularity,
 Melded down into itself 
 A thousand times
 Over the course 
 Of countless patterns
 Of tingling neurons
 Leaping 
 With electric hesitation
 As my story,
 Moment by moment,
 Becomes incomplete.

I have clutched 
 The smile on my face
 So tightly
 That the bleeding heart 
 Behind it
 Began to seep through,
 Pounding against 
 The inside of my skull 
 And rattling the skeletons 
 In my closet
 So loudly
 That I 
 Almost expressed myself
 About an old dark moment
 That hasn't been released
 From the grip that holds
 Its snapping jaws 
 At arm's length,
 Away from my sight.

I am no ordinary human,
 And no more or less special 
 Than anyone you've seen
 In the faces you've avoided 
 On your street 
 On the way to the grocery.
 But I have keys and locks
 That most don't notice,
 Because, 
 Seeing all that's there
 Would bring most shoppers 
 To their knees,
 Wishing that somehow
 They could forget
 What makes us breathe,
 And take their chicken back 
 To the aisle 
 Where they still felt free.

I'm the kind of girl 
 You meet behind a counter,
 Or in an alien ship 
 Three dimensions away,
 Occasionally in the ghetto 
 With schizophrenics,
 Or by a pagan fire 
 Dancing in the rain.

Sometimes I'm in a trash house 
 In the desert,
 Or hiding under a blanket 
 On the couch.
 But my secret 
 Is always melded 
 Into everything,
 The details you don't hear,
 That I leave out.

I wrote this tonight to share with you my experience of opening.  We all have things that feel incredibly difficult to be open about, sometimes even with ourselves, but the more that we are brave enough to at least notice and feel what we’re hiding and why, the easier it will be to determine where our unexpressed story is holding us back.

What if you’re holding back the truth about what you need in a job or a relationship?  Or what if your unexpressed weird or wild or taboo side is keeping you from unleashing the most satisfying creative ways of expressing who you really are as an individual, and keeping you from getting to know yourself fully?

What if your old wounds, and other things you don’t like to think about, are keeping you in a habit of playing it safe, keeping yourself small, or settling for something that makes you wonder where you went wrong?

We have to be honest with ourselves and know our own secrets.  Only then can we begin to move forward, and be loving towards ourselves in the ways that we really need it, and be bold in the ways that we haven’t been for too long of a while.

And as always, I’m here with an open heart to remind you that you are perfect as you are, and always growing, and supporting you on your journey, Goddess to Goddess. 

All my love and appreciation,

Aquarian Goddess Jen

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Who brings out YOU?

Today, let’s talk about influence, identity, and most importantly, you.

Personally, I’m very aware that we are all walking tuning forks and chameleons, soaking up and emitting the gist of our surroundings.

We walk around picking up mannerisms, preferences, habits of thought, and through this natural phenomenon, our individual truths get smushed into different shapes for a while, until we realize it through being shown the striking contrast, usually in a rather dramatic “I don’t even recognize myself anymore!” kind of upheaval.

We’re often drawn to people who remind us of ourselves, or others we’ve felt comfortable with in the past. It’s only natural, since the person feels familiar, and we’ve created a habit of being open to that specific energy in our lives. This is good, as long as we have a healthy filter so that we don’t end up repeating mistakes of opening to someone who has qualities that are damaging.

We also have a tendency to seek out those who have qualities that we’d like to embody ourselves, and while this is healthy when done in a balanced way that keeps your truths and core values intact (while unconditionally loving ourselves along the way), it’s an image of a future self that is always under construction and usually not someone we identify as just yet, so we’ll often tweak ourselves to match the template of how THIS person got closer to where we’d like to be, and can get a bit lost in that.

The third kind of person is the real game-changer. Every now and then, you’ll meet a person who brings out YOU. They are the rare gems who just naturally bring us into a comfortable state of self-expression and feeling good in our own skins.

They may or may not be walking a similar path, they may or may not seem particularly inspiring, but that’s not what makes them so inexplicably enjoyable. You’ll know who they are because they’re not just like you, or like your ideal image of who you want to become. You’re not just picking up on qualities that you share, like you would with a mirror. They’re genuinely THEM and that energy supports you being you.

These are my favorite kinds of people. While you have a lot in common, you get really geeked about how THEM their outfit, or their art, or their way of living is. And they wanna know what makes you you. They appreciate the shit out of your unique expression, and their energy naturally directs you towards INNER expression from your core, rather than ideals and constructs and values of theirs, or society’s.

I’ve lucked out to have a couple friends like that over my lifetime. They’re the ones who you just keep a special place in your life for, who keep a special place for you in theirs.

Pay attention to these people, the ones whose unique energy supports you being what you are. This type of connection is SO life-giving, in that it releases us from the usual pressure we feel to conform to our surroundings, or our ideals, in a sea of expectation and being on guard.

Choose to surround yourself with the people who are amazed by your natural way of being, who encourage you and make you feel proud of who you are.

Give yourself the full permission to be uninhibitedly you. And those who suit you, your projects, and your personality will be able to see you, and be a part of your wonderfully unique life.

Who we naturally are is PERFECTLY suited to our purpose, and as long as we put our genuine hearts and wills out into the world every day, we WILL create the lives we’ve been dreaming of. It’s only a matter of consistent, authentic, soul-inspired action, as we go forward through time.

And if you need a friend or a helping hand along the way, you know I’ve got you, Goddess to Goddess.

All my love,

Aquarian Goddess Jen

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