Are you Committed to your Soul or to your Struggle?

This is a powerful question to ask yourself.

Not just once, but as you go about the day.

As you’re making your choices, what is your main motivator?

Is it your belief that God, Spirit, The Universe, Your Higher Self… is guiding you and has your back?

Or is it the false idea, the limiting belief, that yesterday’s struggles are somehow glued to you through tomorrow?

Your committment is the glue that sticks a situation to you. Release from the committment and you’re free. Commit to a new goal, or a new path, and it’s yours. Simple as that. Simple doesn’t mean easy, it just means simple. You’ve got to hold something you’ve glued together for a while to make sure that it sticks. Glue takes a while to dry.

 

 

 

I’ve spent plenty of time committed to the struggle too, so I definitely feel ya. Two years ago, I was deep in it. I’d come home from an office job that was just to pay the bills, that stressed me out to the point where I was getting sick all the time and felt so drained I had no interest in anything.

It was one of those jobs where the boss is a good guy, but yelled and swore at everyone. As an empath and a highly sensitive person, I just could not take it. It was the kind of job that makes a person like me cry in the bathroom.

When I’d get home, I’d put the quickest food possible into a pot or in the oven, and zone out to Netflix with the only free time I had (which felt like none even though it was hours). My health was SO far out of whack from stress affecting my hormones (which control SO many things in the body) that most of my money went towards seeing a naturopath to fix it.  I knew my everyday life was making me really unhappy, but I was very good at distracting myself from it, as a way to cope with that fact that I didn’t think I could change it any time soon.

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Sometimes you can’t see how far you’ve strayed from your path until you put down your favorite form of distraction.

I was so focused on improving my health with the little energy I had, but here’s the thing. My lifestyle was throwing me back out of whack every time I’d get back in it. I was so committed to this job that was slowly killing me, and to the coping mechanisms (escaping through entertainment) that I used to try and unwind, and felt so unstable that I was afraid, SO afraid to risk losing that sense of foundation. Even though it was crumbling under me, and taking me down with it.

My lifestyle, and my committment to my struggle, were what needed fixing.

Does any of this sound familiar? Because the more people I talk to, the more people I see scared to take leaps of faith (big or small) to start to root their foundation in their soul, with the support of the universe, instead of being committed to the struggle of going against what’s actually healthy for them.

Leaps of faith don’t have to be massive. They can be as simple as looking at what’s out of alignment with your inner truth, and changing one small thing at a time to get closer to it.

There is a divine blueprint, a path laid out by your soul before you come here, and you can find it by feeling into what lights you up, vs. what shuts you down. Our lives are a combination of fate and free will. This path is always laid out for us, but it’s up to us to align with it, and choose to walk it.

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There is a unique path just for you, divinely designed for your truest fulfillment.

For my journey, it took me some time to make the changes, but I took things one step at a time. I got a job that seemed more chill at first, doing office work from home. It gave me the opportunity to invest in coaching for the first time, and start REALLY building the spiritual coaching & energy work business I’d been dabbling with for three years. Investing in myself and in my soul’s purpose was the most powerful that I’d ever done. Having someone there to encourage and guide me back to my own center, keep me focused on my goals so I woudn’t give up or completely change paths (like I’d done over and over again before that).

I was finally starting to GROUND what my life had been teaching me and preparing me for for all these years. And YES, it was still a struggle. My job at that time started getting more and more stressful. I stopped and started a handful of times to rest and recenter, but never truly gave up. And over the course of only a year, I had gained so much confidence, had learned to trust myself to be able to make a living in a way that didn’t murder me in the face all week, but actually aligned me deeper with my core so that I could help others in the way that I knew I was meant to.

It started getting exciting to be alive again, because I had calls lined up with wonderful people who I was helping to line up with their path in the same way that I had been lining up with mine. These were people who were thanking me for our coaching sessions giving them the clarity and courage to do things like going on adventures to Alaska to find themselves after years in the corporate world, or realizing completely new ways that they could put their love of transformational festivals, retreats, shamanic plant medicines, and sound healing together into event ideas that were completely unique to their path and gifts to share with the world.

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Ganesh: Remover of Obstacles

I started to become so lit up, and inspired. And even though I was still working that office job that was getting crazy stressful as they kept adding more to my plate and speeding up the pace, and making me sick again, I was on fire. I started doing more and more in my free time because I was determined to transition out of it. I was ready for a new environment and to be in my own element again.

I started doing reiki and readings on a psychic hotline type of website. I started collaborating with websites that were reaching out to me as I kept sharing my message. I had some money saved up and decided when I got really sick one week, that I couldn’t keep doing that to myself, I had to let go of that job. That was a major turning point for me. I had become so committed to my purpose that it was starting to replace the crumbling foundation that I was refusing to let take me down this time.

I kept taking step after step… writing, coaching, reiki & intuitive energy work, readings. Helping people. Empowering people. Inspiring people to be who they’re meant to be more strongly. Feeling into what I truly needed right then. And trusting. Letting go of the fears one by one, and trusting.

And then, as you’ll find happens when you commit to aligning with your soul’s true path… everything started falling into place.

I moved to Asheville this past week. Through focusing on alignment and taking action with INTENSE determination, it only took me a week to sort out the details, pack, travel, and feel at home. Never before in my life could I have set everything up and moved in a week. It was one of those situations where you look back and realize that we’re all capable of so much more than we realize when we step into alignment with our souls, our spirit, our inner being, and allow it to flow no matter what challenges come up.

I connected with the perfect roomies to live with who became instant friends. The perfect spa to be a part of. And got started on a new program with my own coach to really make the most of this powerful transition and first steps into this next incredible phase of my life.

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So, I have to ask you… what is your committment to?

Your struggle or your soul?

Are you trusting and aligning, or suffering because you’re too afraid to let go of what’s dragging you down?

What in your lifestyle needs to be nudged back into alignment that’s been throwing you out of whack? What committments need to be broken altogether? And what new ones can we start to put into place?
I’m ALWAYS here to support you and guide you, into your own truth, so that you can show up, and ground your purpose, and make the impact that you’re here to make in the world.

Message me here for a free consult. I’d love to help you gain clarity and the courage to make a change.

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North & South Nodes – The Power of You – Live Video 30 Day Challenge

The Power of You.

The strongest force in the Universe lives inside of you.

Stand strong and let it come out today.

If you didn’t catch the live-stream on Instagram announcing the Power of You live video series, to help you break free into your best life possible, from the inside out, you can still find it here in my blog.

I committed to this 30 Day Challenge doing one live video on Instagram daily, to help bring myself out of my comfort zone and into greater communication with you! 

I have so much to share with you about the tools and practices and perspectives that help to bring out the power that rests deep within each of us, so that you can live and thrive in accordance with the core of who you are, embodied to the fullest.

In this first short episode, I share the story of how the idea for this series was sparked by a magnificent coaching call with Klara Hodulakova where we dug down deep to the bottom of what had been holding me back from expressing myself fully and really letting myself shine true in my business in the way that I desperately wanted to show up.

 

 

One of the things that I realized was that my perfectionist tendencies were stopping me in my tracks left and right (sound familiar?) and every time I’d think about putting myself out there in a new way, I’d come up with twelve reasons why I didn’t know just the right strategy (only to answer her questions about how much I love to share messages through video, and love YouTube and Instagram as platforms), didn’t have the perfect lighting and equipment (when mine is perfectly suited for live video and can improve over time), and was concerned I’d run out of ideas for the the steady stream of information I’d need to share to be consistent enough (when I could literally ramble about mystical and grounded self-improvement all day every day to whoever’s listening, because let’s face it, that’s the only thing my brain is focusing on besides being in greater harmony with nature, and the occasional Disney song.)

After this realization, that my perfectionism was holding me back in such a massive way from expressing myself to the fullest to the world, when I already know that doing just that is my whole purpose and message and goal, I realized the relevance it had to my astrology, particularly my north and south nodes.

In our natal charts, our north and south nodes tell us the direction we’re meant to move toward, in our approach to life, and the opposite of it that we are starting from.  For example, my north node is in Pisces, which means that in this life, I am meant to move more towards my spiritual, trusting, intuitive nature, and to let go of my tendency to get caught up in too much of the life approach of my south node, which is in Virgo, and shows up as a tendency to deeply analyze, strategize, and have every single detail in perfect order.  To be coming away from my south node means that I’ve had an overabundance of attention to detail, and need to lighten up about the details not always being smudge-proof and lined up in nice little rows.  To trust that who I am and what I offer is good enough because of what it is, and that its appearance is not here for me to be judging.  That it is a gift from the divine, no matter what it is shaped like, and that it should be treated as such and be free to flow in its raw and natural glory.

Sometimes we need to be reminded by a mirror of how we’re not walking our talk in an area we were trying to hide from ourselves. 

No matter how many years of self-improvement we’ve had, we will always be growing and challenging ourselves in new ways, and we will always have revelations about things we didn’t realize we were doing, because we disguised it as not being ready, by limiting beliefs.  And so here I am, full force, ready to share with you SO much from the core of my being, to help you break free in more and more ways, on this exhilarating 30 day journey into The Power of You.

Be sure to follow me @_aquarian.goddess_ so you can tune in on Instagram at 5pm EST today for the next Power of You live video! I’ll give you a hint as to the next topic.  It’s something we were masters of in our childhood, but never realized would be a practical and magical force that can transform our lives today.  Any guesses? 😊🌸🍃